Yesterday I withdrew from teaching a webinar – Trauma and the Heart in Traditional Chinese Medicine. This class was planned for next month and I have been preparing for it for the last few weeks, as I have also been intent on getting ready for a host of other classes and commitments.
This morning, I know that I am going to teach the class on trauma but not next month. The decision was tough for me. It goes against the grain of my familiar, enthusiastic, heroic outer personality. I am not someone who backs out of a commitment. But it was also a huge relief – listening to a bigger, wiser part of me – the Self instead of the ego – that knows that the Hero needs a rest. It is not right for me to push myself so forcefully at this time.